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Monday, December 3, 2007

Blind in Eyes, Sight in Faith

This past couple of months had been more than extrodinary for me. I use to wear a mask wherever i go, which is nowhere actually. Before i accept christ, i was already recieving the many blessings God had in store for me, like the fact about working in Trybe, (Those who wish to know about my testimony, please visit www.Trybe.org, and look for my profile ^^), and the fact about blessing me with not just an understanding friend, but a spiritual father who is always there to support me and guide me. People ask me, "Kai, if God loves you, why does he make you spend 20 years of your life in misery?"(It was a question i asked myself repeatly before i accepted Christ). The answer is this.. Because God knows me too well. If He had allowed me to grow up with Christian beliefs, I would not have as strong faith as Him coming down on me at the time of need due to my rebellious behaiviour. In fact, I probably would not even attend church on sundays. Instead of that, he watched his child suffered 20 years with a pain in His heart(Yes, i truly believe it pains Him to watch me suffer, and yes, He has been beside me this 20 years, watching me, and just waiting to reach out to me), just so that my faith in him will be strong enough to carry out the rest of his plans through me. People also says to me, "Kai, I don't see any changes in your life! You are still as financially broken as you are before you recieve Christ. Why not ask God to send you a blank cheque?" My dear friends, the thing is NOT about improving my circumstances at all! It is being able to identify my Circumstances, and Enjoy it. "Enjoy poverty? Rubbish!" Well, if you are investing your happiness in materialistic and short-term things, than your happiness will be short-lived. But I am storing my treasures in the Kingdom of God, and therefore, my happiness will be for eternity! And just to prove it, even thou i am under financially strain, i am still alive! For the past couple of weeks, i din't have a single cent. But God provided my daily needs for me on a daily basis thru blessings and my spiritual family, because He knows too well of my weakness of spending! Therefore it explains why he doesn't send me a blank cheque.
Throughout this period of time, it has been very trying for me. But because i have Faith, i start to realise that there are things you cant see with your eyes. There are things that you can only identify, if you really believe in it. So have you started on your journey of Faith yet?



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Jesus looked at him and loved him. "One thing you lack," he said. "Go, sell everything you have and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven. Then come, follow me." - Mark 10:21
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